"never start frowning, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.. "
June 04, 2012
Belly Button's blog. Somebody's wife now.
June 02, 2011
blog issue: kenapa tulis blog ni?
salam.
sekarang aku dah jarang sangat-sangat-sangat nak update blog ni. tak macam awal-awal dulu.
kenapa? sebab reason dah lari.
masa awal-awal create blog ni aku punya objektif adalah untuk connecting dengan complete stranger, dengan erti kata lain orang yang aku tak kenal dalam real life. kira blog ni macam different side of the world lah.
jadi aku takde cerita pasal diri sendiri seperti nama, dan gambar-gambar pun tak de.
aku hanya luahkan pendapat aku dengan stranger, aku rasa lagi senang nak kongsi dengan orang yang aku tak kenal.
dan lebih senang dengar pendapat orang yang kita tak kenal, sebab dia takde sebab nak jadi bias.
okay.
banyak jugak sebenarnya cerita-cerita yang aku tak kongsi dengan orang yang ada dalam life aku, aku kongsikan dengan orang kat sini.
even partner aku yang aku panggil 'tarzan' yang aku cerita sikit2 dalam few entry ni pun tak pernah tau kewujudan blog ni, until few months back.
melalui blog ni, aku kenal ramaiii kawan baru. :)
some of them partner's of seafarers yang aku dah jumpa beberapa kali di luar, lepas kenal di sini. kira memang jadi kawan terus. mereka tu pun tak kenal nama sebenar aku, just panggil sasha. [actually nama tabung anak lembu aku.] or sha belly button. dan walaupun lepas tu dah tau nama sebenar aku kat fb ke, memang tak bother nak panggil guna nama sebenar.
lepas jumpa mereka-mereka ni [seafarer's ladies] dan lepas few of them insisted letakkan photo di blog baru la lepas tu ada beberapa gambar kat sini. kalau tak, memang nan adoo la.
besides them, ada beberapa orang yang aku keep in touch by this blog.
masa tu memang fun. memang seronok. :)
tapi lama-lama, makin ada orang yang aku kenal in real life tahu pasal im blogging this. so lama-lama aku pun jadi stuck nak menulis lagi di sini. sebab nak tulis kadang-kandg dok fikir pulak sesuai ke tidak. bahasa yang aku guna ni okay ke tidak. jadi passion yang dulu tu dah tak ade. dan aku da draft kan balik few published entries yang aku tak rasa nak kongsi dengan orang-orang yang ada sekeliling aku.
blogger friends yang selalu communicate dengan aku dulu pun mesti boleh notice cara aku menulis pun dah lain, itu pun kalau diorang still blog-hopping kat sini.
erm. sometimes macam mana kita pertahankan sesuatu pun, bila tiba masa kita kena lepaskan juga.
jadi mungkin lepas ni aku semakin sangat-sangat kurang jengah & menulis di sini....
sekarang aku dah jarang sangat-sangat-sangat nak update blog ni. tak macam awal-awal dulu.
kenapa? sebab reason dah lari.
masa awal-awal create blog ni aku punya objektif adalah untuk connecting dengan complete stranger, dengan erti kata lain orang yang aku tak kenal dalam real life. kira blog ni macam different side of the world lah.
jadi aku takde cerita pasal diri sendiri seperti nama, dan gambar-gambar pun tak de.
aku hanya luahkan pendapat aku dengan stranger, aku rasa lagi senang nak kongsi dengan orang yang aku tak kenal.
dan lebih senang dengar pendapat orang yang kita tak kenal, sebab dia takde sebab nak jadi bias.
okay.
banyak jugak sebenarnya cerita-cerita yang aku tak kongsi dengan orang yang ada dalam life aku, aku kongsikan dengan orang kat sini.
even partner aku yang aku panggil 'tarzan' yang aku cerita sikit2 dalam few entry ni pun tak pernah tau kewujudan blog ni, until few months back.
melalui blog ni, aku kenal ramaiii kawan baru. :)
some of them partner's of seafarers yang aku dah jumpa beberapa kali di luar, lepas kenal di sini. kira memang jadi kawan terus. mereka tu pun tak kenal nama sebenar aku, just panggil sasha. [actually nama tabung anak lembu aku.] or sha belly button. dan walaupun lepas tu dah tau nama sebenar aku kat fb ke, memang tak bother nak panggil guna nama sebenar.
lepas jumpa mereka-mereka ni [seafarer's ladies] dan lepas few of them insisted letakkan photo di blog baru la lepas tu ada beberapa gambar kat sini. kalau tak, memang nan adoo la.
besides them, ada beberapa orang yang aku keep in touch by this blog.
masa tu memang fun. memang seronok. :)
tapi lama-lama, makin ada orang yang aku kenal in real life tahu pasal im blogging this. so lama-lama aku pun jadi stuck nak menulis lagi di sini. sebab nak tulis kadang-kandg dok fikir pulak sesuai ke tidak. bahasa yang aku guna ni okay ke tidak. jadi passion yang dulu tu dah tak ade. dan aku da draft kan balik few published entries yang aku tak rasa nak kongsi dengan orang-orang yang ada sekeliling aku.
blogger friends yang selalu communicate dengan aku dulu pun mesti boleh notice cara aku menulis pun dah lain, itu pun kalau diorang still blog-hopping kat sini.
erm. sometimes macam mana kita pertahankan sesuatu pun, bila tiba masa kita kena lepaskan juga.
jadi mungkin lepas ni aku semakin sangat-sangat kurang jengah & menulis di sini....
i had some really nice moments here, and i'd known some wonderful peoples by writing in this blog.
i am thankful for that.
i am thankful for that.
May 16, 2011
Tentang guru & murid.
16th may. every year.
tahun lepas adalah tahun pertama sambut hari guru di sekolah sebagai seorang guru.
semoga itu bukan yang terakhir. saya masih punya keinginan untuk menjadi guru semula.
memang betul lah macam tanggapan selama ni, menyanyikan lagu keramat 'Guru Malaysia' memang menyebabkan meremang bulu roma. terasa betapa bertanggungjawabnya seorang guru tu dalam memastikan seseorang manusia tu jadi human, atau just another homo-sapiens.
sebagai bekas seorang pelajar, semua guru sedar betapa besar impak yang diberi kepada pelajar yang di didik.
tapi, bergantung kepada seorang guru untuk hanya mengajar, atau sepenuh hati mendidik.
cuba ingat-ingat balik,
berapa ramai guru dari masa tadika, sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah, matriks, kolej, universiti yang kita ingat.
fikir....
fikir.....
dah ingat dah??
okay sekarang cuba fikir, kenapa kita ingat pada cikgu tu. contohnya cikgu A & cikgu dotdotdot.
anda mungkin ingat pada cikgu A kerana cikgu A sangat lemah lembut, cikgu A selalu membantu walaupun anda sangat teruk dalam mengeja perkataan. sikap cikgu A membuatkan anda bersemangat untuk pergi ke sekolah walaupun selama ini anda takut diketawakan kawan-kawan.
manakala cikgu dotdotdot pula anda ingati kerana garang macam singa dan pernah denda anda tanpa alasan munasabah. dan buatkan anda meluat dia sangat-sangat dan meluat subjek yang diajar.
seorang guru anda ingati kerana perkara manis. manakala seorang lagi anda ingati kerana perkara pahit.
dan juga ada cikgu Xyz. siapa pulak cikgu Xyz ni?? cikgu yang ajar geografi tingkatan dua?? siapa ye? haa langsung anda lupa kerana kehadiran dia kurang memberi signifikan dalam hidup anda.
jadi nampak tak?
guru yang memberi impak & signifikan dalam hidup pelajar akan diingati sampai akhir hayat tidak kira impak negatif @ positif.
saya sendiri mempunyai pengalaman bersama guru-guru yang telah mempengaruhi hidup saya.
Cikgu Idah-- cikgu tadika yang puji saya 'bagus!' dan selalu bagi bintang bila berjaya sambung perkataan. sampai sekarang masih ingat perkataan pertama yg berjaya formed dalam hidup ialah ku+tu = kutu.
waktu tu rasa macam hebat betul! heh.
Cikgu Rosme-- cikgu English darjah satu. arwah sangat lemah lembut, dan beliau berjaya membuatkan saya rasa english tu bahasa yang sangat menarik, bersama lagu2 yang beliau selalu nyanyi dengan murid. suara dia sangat best. saya SUKA bahasa Inggeris kerana dia.
Cikgu Rahmatul Aida-- cikgu homeroom di mrsm. sangat ceria, sangat loving, sangat romantik hubby&wife dengan cikgu Baha, dua2 orang parents-teacher yang sangat takecare pd saya masa di mrsm. salah satu sebab takut nak berskandal di mrsm sebab cikgu Baha cakap, "Farie kalau saya dgr pasal kamu dengan sape2 siappp.. banyak sangat BWP yang kapel nihh.."
saya sangat admire mereka berdua in personal kerana banyak perbezaan tapi sangat complement each other.
dan rasa guilty so much i could die bila dapat result spm Add math teruk gila sebab tak tau apa perasaan cikgu aida sebab dia ajar add math. :(
Cikgu Jamilah-- cikgu yang tak pernah ajar saya secara formal tapi ada dalam hidup saya sejak belum lahir. disebabkan oleh beliau, saya dah lepak dalam makmal sains sejak dari dalam perut. beliau adalah mak yang tegas tapi seorang guru yang cool.
masa kecil saya tak sedar itu, tapi dari pemerhatian saya semenjak dewasa beliau tak pernah tunjukkan stress dengan kerja. beliau jarang sekali membicarakan hal kerja di rumah dan saya masih kagum dengan kegigihan beliau mendorong pelajar beliau berpuasa dengan memberikan rm10 jika berpuasa penuh. pelajar sekolah menengah. yang akhirnya akan ada sahaja yang tak berjaya tapi takkan menipu guru mereka. beliau tidak pernah merungut jika perlu mengajar kelas tercorot kerana saya tahu beliau suka mengajar. di kala kebanyakan guru berlumba-lumba untuk kenaikan pangkat, beliau lebih selesa menolak jawatan pengetua dengan alasan "mama tak minat."
beliau adalah contoh realiti kepada saya yang sebagai guru buat kerja dengan sepenuh hati walaupun hanya sekadar menjadi guru biasa. jangan mendidik cukup syarat sahaja.
ini adalah sebahagian guru yang memberi impak dalam hidup saya.
guru yang tak best semestinya ada,, tapi lagi bagus ingat yang best-best je kan.
kepada rakan-rakan yang telah meninggalkan profession perguruan, remember a proverb says..
"once a teacher, always a teacher.."
we still deserve to sing this song....
May 10, 2011
i call it.. "10 days, 10 things."
day two : 10 things I love
day three : 10 things I hate
day four : 10 things I want to say to one person
day five : 10 wishes
day six : 10 items I can’t live without
day seven : 10 important people
day eight : 10 of my favourite songs
day nine : 10 ways to win my heart
day ten : 10 final words for this challenge
as i read loads of blog, i found one entry that is good to be shared. sometimes you might think that you are introducing yourself to others, yet you're learning more about yourself.
say "hi" to your own self lah.
and another way to keep yourself busierrrr for 10 more days.
and also alternative way to keep your blog up to the beat for 10 days.
what ever it is, and how you're going to project each entry.. it's your call. :)
i want to kill my time so im definitely on this.
start tomorrow.
haha see nak tulis pun malaih apa la. :p
if you do interested in posting this, let me know. i want to read 'you'.
note: kalau sebut 10 things je mesti ingat movie 10 Things I Hate About You. gigih menghafal poem dalam movie ni masa zaman sekolah. :D
day three : 10 things I hate
day four : 10 things I want to say to one person
day five : 10 wishes
day six : 10 items I can’t live without
day seven : 10 important people
day eight : 10 of my favourite songs
day nine : 10 ways to win my heart
day ten : 10 final words for this challenge
as i read loads of blog, i found one entry that is good to be shared. sometimes you might think that you are introducing yourself to others, yet you're learning more about yourself.
say "hi" to your own self lah.
and another way to keep yourself busierrrr for 10 more days.
and also alternative way to keep your blog up to the beat for 10 days.
what ever it is, and how you're going to project each entry.. it's your call. :)
i want to kill my time so im definitely on this.
start tomorrow.
haha see nak tulis pun malaih apa la. :p
if you do interested in posting this, let me know. i want to read 'you'.
note: kalau sebut 10 things je mesti ingat movie 10 Things I Hate About You. gigih menghafal poem dalam movie ni masa zaman sekolah. :D
May 08, 2011
random.
i need some nail color, cool boy cut hair with warm blue highlite, a pair of shade, my ride and a partner-in-crime.
jeez still owed a bet with skool buddy doc hanis to paint my nail yellow.
i did blue once in boarding skool, so yellow is exciting. =D
May 05, 2011
April 19, 2011
assignment yang tak dapat markah.
Ouh sexxayy!! *seize the day!*
Do you have any dirty pictures on your cellphone?
-- define dirty please.... mn tau kot2 aku rs itu mild sajork. haha!
What were your first thought this morning?
-- nak pakai baju apa??
Are you a jealous person?
-- kalu ko worth untuk aku rs jelous.
Would you ever get a tattoo?
-- tak mau ah.
Who was the last person you watched a movie with?
-- kapt. tarzan. cun!!
Day been rough?
-- nope.. dedicate lagu Lazy Song untuk diri sendiri!
What was the last thing you did before you went to bed?
-- talked on the phone.
What are you listening to?
-- I'm the lucky one, anuar zain. next i whip my hair back and forth.!
Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in 10 yrs?
-- yeah. aku sayang ko.
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
-- ntah, tak ingat. benda tak best aku tak ske ingat.
Last time you had pizza?
-- in february.?
When is the last time you cried?
-- last week when i thought of late mummy..
Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
-- loud kot!
Who was the last person to call you?
-- s-i-l saya...
Are you a forgiving person?
-- yes. but skali ko da buat, 10 thn pon aku ingat.
Are you friends with someone who lies about the stupidest stuff ever?
-- ntahla eh, da nama pon tipu, takkan aku tau pulak kot??
Is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
-- yea. rasa macam nak dye milk tea brown tapi tapi tapi... he he he.
Do you wish you can tell someone something big, but cant?
-- lalalalalala~~~ what ever.~
Is anyone on your bad side?
-- ko rasa aku akan bgtau ko ke??
Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
-- yeah. aku muda setahun.
Have you ever liked someone way older than you?
-- tak penah, aku often stuck with someone younger. pelik. adakah aku nampak muda?? ceh2!! tett. next.!
Do you have plans for this weekend?
-- yea bergerak jauhhh nun ke sana..woot..woot..
Are you happy?
-- how about you? mesti tengah tak happy kan? sebab tu tanya aku soalan ni.
Connection between you and the last person who messaged you?
-- future son inlaw bapak aku.
In the last 24 hrs have you done anything you regret?
-- tido banyak. tapi tetap tak cukup tido. erm. (-_-")
Has anyone ever spelled your name wrong?
-- MOST OF THE TIME. AND AKU BENCI GILA! so baca baek2 nama aku yg cun ni;
*** FARIHAN *** bukan farihah, bukan farahin, bukan farhan.
Do you want to see somebody right now?
-- all beloved ones..
Who do you call when your having a bad day?
-- nurizdihar. diha.. diha..
weh sayang kalu ko laki mesti aku kawen ko! haha! next.......
Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
-- tadok.
"wud u ever leave me?.." aku tak penah question ayat ngade2 ni kat org.
ko nk pegi ko punye pasal. kalu lepas tu aku bomb ko jgn tanya la knape.
Whats wrong with you right now?
-- ko la, tanya soklan pelik2. mula la aku rasa ntah apa2.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
-- tadok.
Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you liked?
-- late m-i-l aku. knape tanya soklan yang buat aku jd elmo ni.?? +_+
Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed?
-- ok. nice try.
What's something you really want right now?
-- my prayer to be fulfilled. amin.
Is the last person you hugged older than you?
-- ada beza ke?
Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
-- yes.
conclusion::
lamanya tak buat benda alah ni.
rasa macam jadi student balik dapat buat assignment. :D
April 12, 2011
Movie Review : Cun.!
April 06, 2011
Malay saying.
squirrel can jump eventually fall on the ground as well~
March 29, 2011
as Confucius says...
“It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.”
Wisdom of Confucius
good day, mate!
March 26, 2011
dear Mr ex-
dear mr. ex-,,i hope when your other-half celebrates her birthday this year, you will give her flower. roses, perhaps.i guess she will love it.when we're together before, i really hope that once you will hand me a rose on that eventful day.as now the chance is not mine, i hope somebody else will indulge the feeling.sometimes, some things need to be said and done.even though it takes me years to finally say or do so.i genuinely hope she will be happy and feel as the most luckiest person when she is with you.and so are you, with her.
March 18, 2011
Marriage.
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let ...her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.
-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband.... The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.
So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
[writer: anonymous]
note: i just find that this is too beautiful to just keep it only for my reading.
darlings, have a good day.!~
March 16, 2011
have you ever wonder, if you do some things just slightly different than what you had done, will it change anything?
March 15, 2011
March 06, 2011
February 26, 2011
Somewhere over the rainbow.
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?
other things you could be doing with your time spent on Facebook.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)