January 05, 2010

“When angry, count to four. When very angry, swear.”


"apasal kau ni tak marah haa??! tadi kitorang ckp pasal ni, kalau aku jadi kau da lama aku lempang!"
"ntahla, aku susahla nak marah orang.. aku tak retila nak marah. ko tgk la ape2 jd pon aku mn penah show anger.."
"aku amazed la kau ni, tengah tense2 mcm ni pon kau bule senyum2 lagi."
"abeh tu... aku skg ni da tak reti nak response 4 benda camni dah. baek aku pikir camne nak setel je"

hurm.. jangan tanyalah aku pon tak tau kenapa aku ni patience byk sgt.


"tula kau, baek sgt kat org.. consider sgt org, tp dia buat decision tak pikir kau pon. wahh sedap je mulut aku cakap, hee. tapi mmg betol pon!"

oke... statement yg ni mmg berdesing la sket telinga ni bila dengar. hee.
panas oke.. panas...


practical placement aku ada problem, malas aku nak hurai sebab apa.
self-centered issue.
tp yg plg penting, aku kena scolded for something yg not my fault.
semalam kene, arini pon kene.
oke la aku faham maybe lecturer aku tak bule nak express anger to the exact person, so bila aku mengadap dia.. aku le yg kena.
aku faham bila org sekeliling aku marah for what happened to my situation. walaupon yg sepatotnya marah adalah aku.
bila tengok situasi, aku mmg berhak marah for what happened. tapi ntahla eh aku da tak reti la nak mourning for benda mcm ni. bukan bule setelkan masalah aku pon.

kadang2 aku pon ingin gak nak jadi macam org laen... blow-off bila marah.
the thing is, aku tak reti. aku tak reti nk show and express.
bila aku ckp ngn bestie aku td, dia ckp apa yg betol-- shit happens.
tapi dia pon tanya jugak apesal aku tak marah je??
sebab otak terlebih rasional aku salu pikir camni,,

“It is wise to direct your anger towards problems -- not people; to focus your energies on answers -- not excuses.



Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.” (Gautama Buddha)




okela..... kalau aku upah orang tolong marahkan untuk aku bule??

3 comments:

shasha said...

get mad..and get over it....ok?

Belly-Button said...

i dunno how to get mad lah dear.....

ajjah said...

sometimes shit happens again n again at one particular time kan? i went through that moment before, tapi bagus la tak blow off.

you should be proud of yourself for having such level of patience.