Relationship with military's people; the part that people don't seem to understand.

fact 1

there is no certainty.

relationship ini tak macam other usual relationship.

yg cakap nak jupe esok, lusa, mggu depan.. ko confirm bule jumpe. jarang2 sangat bila ko da bersiap2 nak jumpe suddenly dapat call/msg cakap tak dapat leave. or kne standy-bed. tp bagi kami2, itu expectable. always.

fact 2

being near enough doesn't guarantee of seeing, hearing or even text-ing between the two of you.

masih ingat masa belajar dulu, dari Serdang ke Sg Besi kalau naek tren satu stesen pon tak sampai, tapi nak dpt jumpa tu bule dikira dgn jari.

kalau other relation, ko takkan ada moment kne end conversation sebab dia itu ada 'baris', or hesitate nak cakap lewat2 sebab setiap pagi pukul 5.30 dia da kena lenjan kat padang, physical training pagi.

so ada masanya ko harap dia sebenarnya kerja di laut luas, mau pon di luar malaysia. coz unreachable will always mean literally unreachable.

fact 3

masuk kerja tentera tak sama dengan masuk kerja civilian.

after pertauliahan.. perkara 'Masuk Unit' (lebih kurang masuk kerja) tu tak seindah orang2 laen yg baru masuk kerja. in fact, mungkin tu la saat bermula nightmare ko.

untuk sama2 bertahan and be tough enough to expect hearing nothing for months, not seeing for months.. yg ko harap cuma lah dia dapat survive the pain. survive hari2 tanpa tido. semoga dia tak absent tugas. semoga dia cepat2 dapat habiskan kursus2 induksi ketenteraan. untuk sekurang2 nya setahun, ko kena menjalani hidup gembira tanpa dia, and u mean the happiness. or else dia akan rasa helpless and torn for not being able to b around you, sedangkan benda yg patot ada dlm kepala dia hanya lah pastikan prestasi bagus, pastikan no mistake.

fact 4

you don't have the full control towards your future/relationship. coz the officers have it, too.

di kala semua orang bule take charge of their own future plan, apa ko rasa kalau higher officer tanya 'bila ko agak2 nak kawen?' and bila partner ko jawab, dia bule kata 'u just forget bout it'.

ko rasa nak meroyan? nak jerit2? sebab kenapa org laen ada power towards ko punya future??

ade x org laen yg bila ko masuk kerja, pastu boss ko kate macam tu? pehal pulak kan..

work is work..personal is personal. but not in military. coz your personal CAN influence your working performance.

ko faham tak, kadang2 the fact tak bule kawen bukan sebab tak nak tapi memang tak bule.

ko tau tak, selain interview n kursus nikah.. kami2 perlu berdoa agar si dia itu lulus interview n permission dari officer.

fact 5

we do know that other people don't understand, but we also know it is always not easy to make them understand.

kerana bila kami cuba terangkan, bila ada respons yg kami dapat, "susahnya... kenapa tak cari je org laen?" kami tau mereka tak faham... :)

walaupun da 4 tahun im being an army's lady, maseh banyak yg aku perlu belajar dan perlu faham. kadang2 aku pon macam orang laen, slip-off tapi i'm getting better in time. aku hope people out there dapat clearer view of why we people are slightly different.

we are just as same as other relations.. we aren't any better, we just learn how to be tougher.

but we're willing to go through; because that's the man that we love.

for better, or for worse.

note: thanx to blogger of OurLoveEternity for sharing with me bout how is the expectable condition of Kapt.Tarzan sekarang. the blogger..such a tough lady, she is. dahla dia army, lepas tu husband pulak orang kapal. mmg salute!