Perasaan aku sekarang--

benci.
eh bukan,,
meluat kot.
penat.
letih.
tawar hati.

3 thn dulu aku tak pikir akan rasa macam ni.in fact tak pikir pasal apa-apa.
tapi bila asek kena put own smile for other's sake,aku rasa hati bengkak-bengkak.


semoga aku tak buat keputusan yang extreme.aku bukan melulu, aku nak berhenti. hentikan semuanya.

Alhamdulillah..!

my prayer will be fulfilled... insyaAllah he'll be coming back home tomorow ;)

hmm..hmm.. berkesan jugak tampal notis kat blog ni eyh... ade sape2 terjupe dia ke? *regarding to previous entry*

apa2 pon aku bersyukur lah.. since mummy pon da angin kus-kus ble aku bg tau dia tak dapat blk aritu, penat aku tolong back-up utk dia. heh!

nyway pakcik ni pulak da bg request kek coklat kukus... *in order to dpt kan financial sponsor dr dia utk buat kueh ry kte kne la pandai bodek kannnn* adeh.. beta ini mn pernah buat benda kukus2 ni sume pakai oven jekk...

kepada adik2 kakak2 sekalian, sape rasa dia ada resipi kek kukus yg best punye bule tlg bagi kat aku??.. huhu..

note: dia kadang2 bule jd agak mengada2, ada ke suruh aku buat kek lapis?? ouh pandainye la aku ini.....hee~

if you ever see this person...

**the person with the blu neck tie**please let him knows that someone sings this to him,,

"where u go? i miss you so, its like has been foreva, since you been gone..please come back home......."





he couldn't be reached.... hurm..

What if he/she changes someday..?

sometimes people think that they can cope with changes.

tambah2 kalau from the beloved ones. sebab dah sayang kan....

but somehow its not that easy.

kalau da kasih dah sayang tu semua bule terima, really??

tapi perlu ke nak menerima and menerima je with arm wide open?

semalam suddenly i got msg from kapt. tarzan,

"actually i wanna ask u wut if i start smoke someday? wut do u think?"

no. no. no.

"kalau ko mmg smoke dr awal, memang sah2 ko bule jadi kawan plg kamceng aku, real bff aku, tp setakat tu jela. i'll never think of u beyond that."

mau je aku jawab gitu. masalah terbesar aku adalah sesak nafas dgn asap rokok.

tp get real lah. dah jadi partner takkan xde tolerate and adaptation. *abeh, nak dia je tolerato ngn ko?*

plus benda tak berlaku pon lagi, so jangan nak meroyan lebeyh2.

and aku tak rasa dia akan smoke coz dia mmg tak suka rokok. knape dia bule tanya cam gitu pon aku taktau.

jawapan aku bg soalan dia adalah,

i really dunno.

tapi mmg betol, time after time people changes.

wut matter most is how u cope with the changes.

my question is,,

what if someday u find out that ur partner is not like what u've expected??

*tak kira la in any way*

pulanglah ......

toing!! ada mesej masuk.

"salam..weekend leave i kne tarik.. nati kalu ada masa, tlg inform mumy ye..i got no gut to tell her."

oh. muka panas kejap.

kecewa.

sikit.

sedih.

banyak.

maknanya takde posibility lgsung nak jumpa & berbuka sama2.

tapi dah biasa. macam ni lah life with an army.

*aku tau dia pon kecewa gile... ptg td dia hepy sangat ckp pasal wkend ni.. suddenly x approve.. :( *

tapi, part aku nak kena inform mak dia yg susah sket.

kadang2 rasa mcm dah tuka role pon ade, aku yg banyak console kan mak dia yg selalu nya ape2 je lg beremosi dr aku.

macam mummy pulak dia punya other-half, and aku lak jadik mummy.

so kalu aku sedih pon tak sempat nak sedih.

haha. dah jadi liberal gila.

and.. actually aku sedih............. ***

Ladies' Nite review!~

as i promised, i'll give my review on I LOVE U BETH COOPER.

hurm.

tak rugi la kalu ko tak tengok.

cite pasal mamat nerd yg pegi meluahkan perasaan chenta dia pada hot cheerleader on their graduation day.

apasal eh, nerdy mesti berkenan cheerleader. pastu football player mesti kapel ngan cheerleader. tp dlm cite ni the mean boyfie is an army. *banyak scene dia cut arr..*

moral of the story: dont u mess with army's girl.

tudiaa... mcm bagi reminder kat diri sdiri, supaya tidak menjadi flirtatious lg ble da tawu apa incek army captain bule buat...hee. takpela aku skrg maseh peringkat dalam rehab lagi ni.. =P

cite Beth Cooper ni adalah cite yg kalu ko kua girls je mcm aku buat semalam tu bule la ko nak huhaa huhaa gelak2 and layan kan... kalu sorang or dgn partner ko, rasa tak berbaloi!

tp mamat kat sebelah aku pon asek gelak tak hengat. hoh kenapa tengok cerita ini, adakah kau lembut? tsk. tsk..

kepada yg wonder apa activity aku lg semalam, yeap takde g mencucuk bintang ye.

haha gila ko, da la bulan puasa, pastu pulak tiap kali nak buat apa2 noty je mesti ingat muka mummy. terus tak jadi. pelik gak aku knape aku ingat muka mak inlaw sepatotnya aku ingat muka anak dia, kan. lol!!~

• pegi midnite movie @ midvalley
• pegi downtown kat cheras makan steamboat
• round2 kL..
• pit stop kat dataran merdeka sambil bincang pasal cerita org pakai susuk.. *taktau nape topic ni lak yg dibincangkan*
• g cari sahur kat kmpung bahru..
• tapi last2 makan bubur mc D. haih...

2 orang indian bestie aku pon sebokkk nak makan jugak macam puasa jek.

ha-ha.

BYE!!~

Quick entry!~

hallu..~sehat semua?
kejap lagi aku ade event ladies-nite-out.ouh da lama tak berkecimpung dlm bidang ni.teruja~~~konon2 alasan nak lepaskan tense jawab exam for Ko-Kurikulum Bola Baling.caitt.. aku ingat cikgu2 pJ tu je kne blaja ni. huh. *knape budak2 pJ sume smart eh?musykil aku*
haa ade apa nk tanya pasal bola baling??aku agak bijak da neh... *woit perasan!!*
pasal nite out ni, dorang cakap nak tgk movie I Love U Beth Cooper. oke nati aku bg review.



oh.yea aku da perform tarawikh.benda penting harus diutamakan...

wahai rakyat jelata sekalian..!

korang berbuka dengan apa ari ni???

adakah lg sedap dari nasik tomato and air tebu aku?? hee...

sedey dowh bukak puasa sorang2...

jadinya aku order ini.

pukul 7.05pm nanti sampai.

i ordered classified chicken, and chicken wings.

and cans of coke.

anyone would like to join?

You gotta watch this!!

ORPHAN

i seriously recommend all of you to watch this!

unfortunately tak banyak cinema show this film.

i watched it jusco cheras selatan...

genre: thriller

18PL ye, budak kecik tak bley tengok!

lepas tengok cite ni, korang sure akan rasa bersyukur dengan diri korang.... *perempuan je ye..*

sebab ape?? tak bule bg tau...

and akan berfikir 30,40 kali for adoption.

semua org bersemangat coz esok puasa!

hehe tapi aku rasa ramai yg lagi bersemangat pikir makanan nk berbuka puasa kan? kan?

elele.. betol la tu kann... =P

selain berharap dapat tambah amal ibadat, masa ni sume org:

• pikir pasal baju raya tak tailored lagi.. *pempuan la yg salu runsing pasal ni, contohnya aku.hee*
• pikir nak buat kueh raya ape..
• yg malas busy tu da bersemangat choose kuih ape nak ditempah..
• yg sakit2 hati bile tiket bas raya da sold out...
• yg gigih berusaha utk apply cuti raya bg yg berkerja...
• tak saba tunggu petang nak pegi bazaar ramadhan!! *itu aku!*

yg laen korang tolong senaraikan ye...

selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan ....

satu soalan nak tanya...

ade sape2 tak abeh ganti puasa lagi? haaa...

=P

tanda2 makin berusia..

... adalah kembali muda. bila passion and patience makin menipis sedikit demi sedikit, aku dah nak jadik macam cerita Curious Case of Benjamin Button.orang laen punya notes penuh dgn writing, aku punya penuh dengan doodles.

*sebab pendidikan seni mase sekola dulu pernah fail, lalu skrg membalas dendam menconteng sesuka hati di mana saja. and, art is abstract.. so how cud the teacher failed me?? haaa...still xpueh ati tuh.*

inikah ciri2 perempuan berumur suku abad yg akan menapak mengajar anak2 korang di sekola?yea sila risau sekarang.
Note: well sekurang2 nye aku tak jadik cikgu yg jual amway atau avon dlm bilik guru. ha-ha.

Action speaks louder than words.

contohnye macam ni.

*sengih sampai telinga yeap..*

credit to beautifulnara.com

Kalau paper Edu. Research aku teruk, ini semua ko punye pasal!!

tadi kawan aku merungut,

"budak ni haa da nampak mamat fahrin tu da taknak gerak2 dah!"

hee.

memang.

aku rasa mcm nak pegi tolak je haliza misbun tu meh aku berlakon ngan mamat tu. "fahrin, i berlakon theatre oke... so bule wut setakat nak berlakon ngan u?" huahaha..

masa tgh jawab paper td pon dok fikir mamat tu jugak. kalu result aku tak besh, hah ini sume salah fahrin ahmad!

isk.

sebok jek nak buat shooting kat dewan kuliah tuh.

apehal byk sgt org shooting film/drama/iklan kat upm pon aku tak tau.

mula2 nampak haliza misbun, aku cakap dkt kawan aku,,

aku: "babe aku tak kesah artist mana pon nak dtg, fahrin ahmad je aku layan."

kawan aku: "weh sape fahrin tu?" *isk. tak kenal pulak. tp tak bule nak salahkan dia, she's indian girl yg jrg tgk malay film*

aku: "fahrin ahmad tu d only malay actor yg aku suka. aku da cakap kat kapten tarzan, kalu aku nampak fahrin, aku akan terlupa kejap kat tarzan tu kalu dia kat sebelah aku pon" *wahaha see betapa gigih aku suka fahrin!*

tiba2.... mamat fahrin tu memang betol2 ada kat situ!!!

fahrin! fahrin! fahrin!

kawan aku cakap muka aku tak bule blah teruja gila. hahaha.

note: rupanya fahrin tu tak la tinggi sgt.. (ni dr perception pempuan tinggi spt aku.hee) and dia da kurus sket r skrg.. da kurenggg taff dah, kapt tarzan lagi taff. oke lah kapt tarzan tak perlu risau skrg i tak obses gile kat fahrin dah. obses sket saje. hahaha.

..and he is a gay.

sorang lecturer pindah.dia mmg bagus gila lecturing, and susah sgt nak bg compliment. so kalu dia puji ko, rasa mcm lagi precious dr jupe duet rm50 tepi jalan.before dia pindah, whole coursemate ade bg greeting kat dia in a note book.mane tau rupanya ade dak coursemate aku yg adore dia......................... *jeez..*hot stuff jgk la kot news ni smpai lecturers sume tau.pastu coordinator aku cakap kat dat girl,, "i dunno why u like him, he is gay, hello."
lorh.gay ke?
lantak p kat hang la asalkan hang mengajaq baguih.
aku teringat satu proverb,,
"all good guys are either married, or gay. "
really??

well. adam lambert pon gay. frust, frust.. haih.~

Jangan tutup UPM!!!

hee oke tak pasal2 sume org tau aku bertapa dkt upm ye tak. heh.

sini sana org bercakap pasal h1n1, kat tv.. radio, blog, mcm2 lah. h1n1 which is aku lg ske panggil sesema bebi. td lecturer cakap ade rumours yg mengatakan Upm might ditutup *again* because the number of victim is on the rise. and dengar kabarnye da ade bdk upm yg died coz of dis. *and kalu betol pon mmg upm takkan reveal punye*

tutup.

kalu sminggu, oke still fine.

oke, sebulan.

mean cuti sem akan dipendekkan.

no. no. no.

aku banyak agenda cuti ujun tahun ni. which is aso last cuti as a student, insyaAllah.

tarzan tu perli aku "eh i thought u mmg suke kalu pendek2 kan cuti ni, u kan tak ske cuti"

huh.

baru kua hutan je da bikin aku panas.

next week masuk hutan lg.

walopun begitu, sempat lg pesan "puasa jatuh hari jumaat ni pahala byk, so byk2 kan lah ibadat... marilah kte sama2 ingat-mengingatkan..etc..etc.."

haa amek hang.... kan dah kne dengar ceramah kejap. itu baru sikit.

note: dia sejenis org yg baek2 gitu.

aku sejenis org yg normal2 je. err oke maybe noty sket.

oleh itu wahai kamu2 di luar sana,,

marilah kte bersama2 meraikan kedatangan ramadhan dgn amal ibadah...

*jom bukak pose sama2! ^_^*

MACAM-MACAM ADA!

minggu ni tak banyak benda berfaedah yg aku berjaya buat, tapi beberapa perkara yg bule menjadi panduan/information adalah:

SETEM movie

aku suka part geng orang Indon kne ambush! beria2 dia ckp slang kL sbb taknak kantoi, mmg gelak tak hengat la time ni.. bule tahan jugak syok cite ni. pasal budak anak yatim yg nak curi setem worth usd 4 million, dicampur dgn beberapa geng lg yg sama2 nak curik setem tu jugak. ni family movie yg sesuai mak bapak bwk anak2, sbb moral value dia pon oke jugak.. *hee apesal cakap pasal moral value ni..ingat tgh ngajar ke?!*

G.I. JOE movie

oke, aku pegi nonton GI JOE di mines. cite ni banyak boom2 kebaboom gitu! tapi yg plg best is hero dia ouh sungguh handsome! *evil!*

aku da tak really ingat cite katun GI JOE ni masa kecik2. tp yg film ni kira version human lah, dorang ni special army yg di train yg konon2 nye when others fail, they don't. heroin jahat yg cun, salah satu benda menarik dlm cite ni. tp aku rasa tak la cun sgt biasa2 je sienna miller ni, taktau la pandangan mata lelaki cm mane kan.. hehe.

tengok dog-tag yg hero pakai tu aku baru teringat,, aku culik dog-tag kapt.tarzan. huhu .. tp aku rasa dah dia masuk hutan ni mesti dia da ade dog-tag baru kot.. ? *nak tutup rasa bersalah..*

THE PROPOSAL movie

nice! i watched dis one alone but still i enjoyed it. *dont ask why,, cmnila life.. mcm drama Army Wives tu..* cite The Proposal nih pasal bos yg nak kne halau blk canada becoz of visa application dia kne reject, and to prevent it dia pura2 bercinta ngan assisstant dia. well everything seems nice but hey takkanla dlm 3 ari ko bule jatuh cinta and trus nak kawen dgn org tu, kan?? oke fine... ade kot kes2 camtu. ending cam biasa cliche hepy ending..

tp still lovey dovey kat luar sana bule la nk pegi enjoy dis movie. =)

kalu with family tu mcm nt so appropriate kot, byk centa2 je ni.

CARE FOR A VICTORIA"S SECRET?

with the help of lovely Dani from Shop Till U Drop , i managed to get these VS body mists!! yeah dream fulfilled!

yea VS bukan jual lingerie je yea, jual macam2 lg. the body mists they have are so damn sweet n nice! very seductive! itu yg kte mau..hahaha! so kalu perfume apetah lagi kan...

tp VS just ade di US jea so when Dani said that she could help me to buy it, mmg sungguh excited! tak saba nak dapat my delivery.. ;)

and u guys out there, please check up her blog, if u have something in mind that susah and mahal nak dpt kan di sini, maybe she could help.

coach, aigner, marc jacobs, u name it. *kat sana designer brand pon ade sales, kalu kat msia ni jgn harap le*

plg aku suka, kte bule transfer money by maybank account though dia di US. so sgt2 la easy and convenient.

no, i didnt buy any lingerie sbb aku da broke after shop di La senzaisssss... huhu.

BURN OUT D MIDNITE CANDLE

tadi hampir ponteng kuliah, akibat lambat sampai, jalan jem konvo punye pasal. aku drive then mummy blk dgn keta. dtg semata2 send aku. *m-i-l mmg pamper sy, sy gumbira jd menantu kesayangan.haha.* aku da cakap pada mummy, exceed 15 minutes then i'll not go. prinsip belajar aku, better never than late. tudiaa..

and maybe jugak becoz da final, semua subject sem ni aku rasa busan.

supervisor final year project lak dan2 next week nak tgk abstract. wth?? aku tak tau lagi hala tuju research paper aku ni. pasal literature dowh. da 7 thn belajar Tesl pon aku bule blur lg. ape nak jadi nih?! keyword-- busan.

masa g chow kit tu, aku tengok ramai budak2 skola dok bergedik kat area bukit bintang n times square. pakai baju ntah apa2, pastu dok bajet2 cool jerit2 cakap pasal 'aku tak nak kat jantan tu, bule blah!' well budak jantan tu dahla pon sememeh semacam, tak kne taste lgsung.

isk kalu students aku type menggedik camni nati abehlaa. aku cubit sampai lebam!!!!

dari kem sg.besi ke chow kit road...

tadi pegi kem jupe kapt.tarzan, tunggu sejam lebih tp jupe tak sampai 10 minit. itu pon mintak pelepasan kejap. tapi takpe, da bersyukur dah.. just datang bagi makan saje sebelom esok lusa dah masuk hutan.. *hohoh manyak baek punya partner..*

akak jual mee kari dkt sg.besi tu pon dah tanya kenapa aku beli banyak sgt food, ble aku sebut nak bawak masuk kem dia pon da faham sendiri.

mmg tentera banyak makan kot...

pastu pegi amek tren dkt tasek selatan, transit naek monorel pulak until stesen chow kit. 1st time sampai chow kit, dulu penah ajak kapt.tarzan round area chow kit tp dia cakap tak bule, blacklist for them. officer. ntah aku pon tak faham. so td aku wander around sambil tunggu kawan dtg. the place is not nice. itu je aku bule kata. orang2 dia mencurigakan. aku rasa bahaya.

ada ke tesl upsi buat dinner hotel kat chow kit?? tsk...tsk... ape tah nama dia, Regency kot.. paling tak bule tahan tu da sampai hotel pulak no electricity! and the ballroom was on the 9th floor!!

gile gigih aku panjat smpai 9th floor! seb baek bukan dinner aku, da siap berpeluh-peluh ape bagai. *nak spy2 tgk tesl laen punye dinner mcm mane.heheh*

pastu mula la merapu dengan kawan2 aku cakap nak cari pempuan chow kit road satu malam berapa. haa tu ble sampai tahap tak betoi dah la tu.

bila balik, mummy call.

esok ajak pegi cari barang area masjid jamek, jalan tar.

drive.

wut?? drive?? weekend??

no. way.

naek tren tadi pon aku rasa macam nak demam da dgn penuh sesak org. takut gak aku ngan selsema bebi nih.. so walaupon mum-in-law *patot2 bodek abeh la kan*,, permintaan itu terpaksa ditolak atas sebab aku malas nak tolong pegi tambah jem jalan kat kL tu..

sebagai anak yg baek, oke lah esok aku balek umah. haih.

P.s. aku pegi pesta flora. saket hati tulips takde. black rose pon takde. cett.

"Segala yg indah ada di sini..."

i am charmed by quote kat atas ni ble aku nampak dis lil cute shop near sri serdang. tiba2 je kaki laju je gerak ke sana.

and dis is my 1st time jupe business blog shop, which is owned by Kak Edast yg cute.
dis is the boutique owner..
oke about the product first,,edast boutique ni jual ladies apparel, shawl, brooch, accesories and yg paling aku teruja is Crocs shoes! original crocs shoes with lower price compared to boutique crocs coz direct terus from factory. of coz la sume org tawu crocs very comfy kan,, and i cud confirm u yg this is really an original crocs, i've bought one *same design dgn yg aku ade..hee* yg konon2 bekalan utk dipakai masa practicum nati. haha. nak jugakkk pakai crocs pegi skola kannn..the shawls are superb! design dia very cantek, and atleast once in a week of course aku akan pegi jenguk kedai kak edast ni bg memborong latest shawl. lol!~see...dis is how i manage to get many beautiful shawls.. =)
tak payah cakap banyak.. pegi je kat link ni --> edasthomyshop
dr situ korang bule pegi ke link2 laen yg the owner dah specify such as crocs, shawl, brooch, clothes..etc.

aku mmg sangat tertarik dgn motif dkt door fitting room ni!

about the environment,,very cosy!!!it is pink... *the boutique owner really loves pink*, with beautiful lighting, air-cond and it smells very nice too! seriously!!so take a peep at edastboutique, it worths ur visit.. who knows wut u'll find... ;)

bila mak suruh kawen ...

tadi mummy ajak g visit abang kapt.tarzan di sabah end of dis year.

owh tidak bule,, aku perlu berjimat cermat.. so aku bg tau pada mummy pasal plannin kapt.tarzan about taking the next phase.

tapi aku tak tau kenapa mummy lak nak suruh cepat2 kawen. lorh...

aritu masa aku drive gi jB mummy ada cakap dia bg tau kapt.tarzan suruh kawen. oke fine, aku dengar jela.. mcm bukan kene ngena ngan aku. hee.

today ble aku cakap pasal this matter, mummy cakap tak payah engage2 dia nak suruh bernikah. penin. more to aku hairan kenape. kenape cam cepat jek.

well yg aku tau kawen2 ni takde lg dlm plannin aku atau dia utk tahun ni. gile ko aku pon tak finish degree lg ni. and guys always being guys, aku rasa dia pon tak puas lagi nak enjoy single life dia.. *mau meroyan kawan2 pempuan dia kalu dia yg kawen dulu. tp part tengok org meroyan ni aku ske jugak!haha!!*

the most important part is,

kalu mak aku yg beria-ia suruh kawen tu aku faham la.. coz biasa la tu standard mak yg ade anak perempuan.. tp actually, mama aku relax jek takde cakap ape2.

its mummy.

d mum in-law. suruh kawen.

ble mummy in-law aku yg bersungguh-sungguh,, isk haru gak nih. camno nok buek ni haa...

hee dia takot aku larik kot?!

tiba2 rasa mcm nk demam... ngade2 arr ni mesti sbb esok start kuliah. urgh.

Bday Bash & Gathering!

i've went to bethrisya's bday party, which was blast!! kek dia.. pergh.... speechless!! memang kagum abeh la! thanx to kak ena for inviting.. i hope beth loves her pressie.. ;)

supposed tak dapat attend,, tp last minute contact cik farra ni aku manage to go jugak. turun flight trus amek bas g kl sentral, pastu nek komuter, pastu nek keta.. hoho byk btol transport aku semalam. skali dgn bday party ni also kinda my 1st blogger reunion jgk la neh.. ble berada di kalangan seafarer's ladies ni suddenly aku rs mcm shrinking sbb aku je army's. huhu. ((farra, akak culik gamba atas ni ye!))
nyway they're so nice, very warmth and aku kenal ramai orang semalam. sembang2 at umah kak nin really gave me a perspective to many thoughts that aku tak penah terpikir slama ni.. *kak nin, farra...u know wut is it, aite?=p*

well coz aku never upload pic, ramai org confuse dgn shasha belly button. time party tu nina n few others da claim suh aku letak gamba. hee.
baeklah daku menurut perintah. lol!~ *sila picit di sini*


to kak ena, farra, kak hanin, kak dina, kak reen, kak ecah, sha, nina, kak izan, nani, ety, anis, azie, and sume2... it has been a great pleasure meeting all of u! ^_^

Halluu.. da lupa aku ye?!

where to start???
i feel like im lost from this world after 2weeks of offline. well kalu 2weeks off from blogworld tu as same as it has been a year la kan. missed out so many things.
seriously busy weeks.. fortunately *or unfortunately??* last tuesday dapat cuti h1n1 for a week, which also mean less raya holiday. urgh. punya kelam kabut pack brg, once again laptop bwk blk but broadband tertinggal! amnesia. ingatkan da alang2 cuti bule la melepak d blog2 orang secara berleluasa, tiba2 benda plg penting tu bule tertinggal.

anyway no sweat, sementara cuti yg maseh berbaki ni aku akan menjejak jari d blog korang dgn penuh bahagia! heheh.

p.s. sila tinggal pesan jika aku blom tiba kat korang nye blog, takot ter miss-out. ;)